Loneliness

23/11/07













This gift that You give me and say to cherish
It's old and it's dusty
and seems a bit rusty
I will not take it; I swear I will perish
It's wrapped in pain
with blood it's stained

I feel so alone and nobody's home
No one to hold me and say
It's all gonna be okay
Then You knock on my door
and taking my hand,
"Just kneel, I'll stand. 'Cause only I can."

I guess that I chose this and pleaded for You
To promise You'd hold me and make me stay true
So now that You break me and take all of me
Though crying, I'm trying
to need only Thee

I find You, in the silence
I find You, when I can't find myself
I find that I need You,
and not much else
Please take it all, except
This gift, I'll accept

It is Love

10-09-08

I know what you’re thinking

You don’t see the reason

The reason for why we’re here

Why do we have to fight?

Why do we have to suffer?

Why do we have to see our loved ones die?

Your every day

In this existence

You feel like you’re just spinning

around and around

and every day you’re falling closer and closer

closer to the ground

Listen to me when I say

I felt just like you

Until I found the reason

Until I found the truth

of why we’re here

And is it Love

You can’t help but crying

Alone in your dark corner

But I’m not teasing, I’m not lying

When I tell you plainly Love has come

And it is here for you, and for me

And it is Love

The hardest thing you’ll ever do

Is to believe that it is true

To believe that love can change you

And it can change this hell on earth

For this I live and I am worth

And it is Love

He's Beautiful

10-09-08

Verse 1:

He’s beautiful

And he’s dangerous

He doesn’t know

The way that I feel

He’s all I want

And all I’ll never have

What he doesn’t know

Could never be

Chorus:

And I’ll hide this part of me

And I’ll try not to be seen

And I’ll smile on the outside

Keep him on the far side

Of me

Of what could never be

Verse 2:

I wonder though

How strong I am

If he’d only know

The way that I feel

How far I’d go

To end up all alone

It’s why I keep

These feelings to me

(Repeat Chorus)

Verse 3:

One day I’ll say

When he looks my way

One day he’ll know

How it makes me feel

And anything he says

Stays up in my head

These memories

A part of me

In My Mind

08/09/08

Verse 1:

These thoughts that I’ve got

More often than not

Fighting a duel

Inside my mind, raging unkind,

And more often than not,

I play the fool.

The people who know cannot help me.

The people who care cannot help me.

The people who can do not help me.

The point and the truth I can’t find.

Chorus:

Maybe it’s this way for a reason.

Maybe the reason is the way I am.

Maybe I’m meant to think for a thousand,

and maybe this curse is a gift in my hand.

Verse 2:

The doubts and questions that fill up my mind

and never seem to let go of me,

are the stones of the bridge ‘cross the ocean of life,

and force me to search to be free.

The people who know cannot help me.

The people who care cannot help me.

The people who can do not help me.

The point and the truth I can’t find.

Chorus:

Maybe it’s this way for a reason.

Maybe the reason is the way I am.

Maybe I’m meant to think for a thousand,

and maybe this curse is a gift in my hand.

Verse 3:

Then you tell me the way I’m meant to be free

And you show me the truth through the lies

In your eyes shines the light on my dark mystery

Now I know where I’ll go when I die

If I take every thought and the doubts that surround me

and drown them with thoughts from above,

I’ll find the peace in the storms, I just know it

and the Hands that possess me with love.

Chorus:

Now I know it’s this way for a reason.

And the reason is the way I am.

You show me the pathway right through the darkness,

And you take me by holding my hand.

A Different Road

28/07/08

Verse One:

I’ll be fine to get out and breathe again

It feels like forever holding it all in

I thought I’d found my road and calling for eternity

But now

All I knew and everything around me’s falling

Chorus:

I just wanna break out and be

That someone that You saw inside of me

I’m free

Open my eyes

So I may see

The broken pieces made anew from me

Verse Two:

The steady paces taken to the final cross

And all those faces of the dying and the lost

The changes breaking everything I’ve ever known

And I

Am trusting You to guide me ever safely Home

Chorus:

I just wanna break out and be

That someone that You saw inside of me

I’m free

Open my eyes

So I may see

The broken pieces made anew from me

Bridge:

And it’s been good, and it’s been right, to walk the easy way

I’ll never trade the memories we’ve made from yesterday

But I know now, it’s clearer now, You’ve opened up my eyes

Until I fall, and lose it all, I’m never gonna rise

Chorus:

I just wanna break out and be

That someone that You saw inside of me

I’m free

Open my eyes

So I may see

The broken pieces made anew from me

I wanna be loved...

14-03-08

Chorus:

I wanna be loved by You

I wanna be everything You do

I wanna be loved by You

I wanna be loved by You

Verse One:

Should have seen him standing at the door

Should have known he never wanted more

Maybe it’s the best thing to be free

But I’m hurting on the inside, paining me

Repeat Chorus:

I wanna be loved by You

I wanna be everything You do

I wanna be loved by You

Only loved by You

Verse Two:

I handed him my heart and all I had

I asked him if he cared to be my man

But Baby, You were wiser over me

You took it all away and said I’ll see

Repeat Chorus:

I wanna be loved by You

I wanna be everything You do

I wanna be loved by You

Only loved by You

Verse Three:

We’re passing through the darkest times ahead

I’m counting on the hope and all You said

To know that You’ll be everything I need

Is strength enough to rise, deliver me

Bridge:

And if I get close, and lose my smile

Please hold on to this heart that wants to die

I had to let it go, it took a while

I wanted You to know the reason why

Repeat Chorus 3 times

How true...

"The one you love and the one who loves you are never, ever the same person." -Chuck Palahniuk