There is Much Pain...

There is much pain, but someday there will be much reward.
There is much sacrifice, but someday there will be much glory.
There is much heartache, but someday there will be much comfort.
There is much confusion and much doubt, but someday you will see Me face to face.

Don't Quit!

Author unknown

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low, and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you frown a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is strange with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.

Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you can never tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things seem worst, that you must not quit.

Conscience free...

I have to live with myself, and so
I want to be fit for myself to know,
I want to be able, as days go by,
Always to look myself straight in the eye;
I don’t want to stand, with the setting sun,
And hate myself for things I have done.

I don’t want to keep on a closet shelf
A lot of secrets about myself,
And fool myself, as I come and go,
Into thinking that nobody else will know
The kind of man I really am;
I don’t want to dress up myself in sham.

I want to go out with my head erect,
I want to deserve all men’s respect;
But here in the struggle for fame and pelf
I want to be able to like myself.
I don’t want to look at myself and know
That I’m bluster and bluff and empty show.

I can never hide myself from me;
I see what others may never see;
I know what others may never know;
I never can fool myself, and so,
Whatever happens, I want to be
Self-respecting and conscience free.

Smiling

Smiling because I know you are too

Frowning because I hoped you would understand

Crying because you left me here alone

Laughing because I know that God is good

Smiling because you’re here for always

Frowning because I wish that it were true

Crying because you make me feel so helpless

Laughing because I know that life is fair

Smiling through my teary eyes

Frowning through the pain

Crying through the truth and lies

Laughing through the rain

Written 28/02/08

I want to be...

a loving teacher
a speedy help
a level head
a welcome distraction
a tidy mind
a listening ear
a shoulder to cry on
a genuine friend

I pray to be...
strong in You
weak in myself
sincere in my praise
silent in my criticisms
impartial in my love for others
biased towards You
content in Your Will
dissatisfied with mediocrity
dead to myself
alive in You
more like You

I hope to be...
counted on
smiled about
looked to
trusted in
sought after
thought of
prayed for
remembered well


27/02/08

I loved you because...

...you were real.



I loved you because you made me smile, for real.
I loved you because when I was with you I couldn't think of myself.
I loved you because when I wasn't with you all I could think about was you.
I loved you for what you cared about
and I loved you for what you helped me to care about.

I loved you because I was naive.

I love you now for what you are.
I love you now for what you have made me to be.

And when I feel like giving up
And when I can't make sense of anything
And when nothing heals the aching wound
When hope is dashed, and dreams are smashed
It's because you're not here anymore
and because I've grown up.


Life isn't always like that,
Life isn't always filled with you,
But I still thank God for the times I did love you
because it was those times that changed who I was supposed to become.

Don't worry, I'll get over you.
Just give me time.
And love me anyway.

I will love you indefinitely,
and I'll swear on that.


Written April 30, 2006

Disappear

10-04-07

Vs 1:

I never saw those eyes

Those lips that say I love you so

And smile as I ask you why

I never thought it’d be

Your hand I want to hold, to feel

Your shy kiss say goodbye

Chorus:

Cuz you’re all I ever think of

Though I didn’t know your name

And I’m standing on the brink of

Going crazily insane

Tell me that I’m not mistaken

I know angels sent you here

And I wonder can I touch you

Or will you disappear?

Vs 2:

I never knew if you

Were here or there or not to me

A boy, a man, a mystery

I never felt so free

My heartbeat racing, hoping still

Wake up, leave me amazing

Bridge:

Get out of my mind

Before I make you real

Extraordinary fine

Is how you make me feel