Think again

Written November 11, 2006

Vs 1:
She sits upon the sidewalk waiting
He’s missed their 53rd appointment, Maybe
If she’d walk away, he might come running
Make it worth her while
Make her smile

Bridge:
But I’ve been here before
Had to pick those same blue pieces off the floor

Chorus:
You think he cares, it’s just not fair
You never see him anywhere
He calls to say, had a busy day
And you think that he’s real

You think he’s shy, when his friends pass by
He drops your hand, stares at the sky
He tells you not to wait up late
Then takes your best friend on a date
And you think that he’s real
Say, I know just how you feel

Vs 2:
She throws a shocker party for his birthday
Who knows, that he’d be late
Please stay baby
If she’d walk away, he might come running
Make it worth her while
Make her smile

Repeat Bridge and Chorus

Reminiscing...

24-02-09

I remember
You smiled and you laughed
And you sat and you stared
The first time we met
But I didn’t look twice

I remember
Not thinking of romance
When you moved and you danced
That night by the fire
But I did think, “How nice…”

I remember
When we drank and we talked
And you wooed and I mocked
The time at the bar
And you said you were true

I remember
Then I knew you were nuts
And I knew that I must
After all that I’d heard
Be crazy for liking you too

I remember
I would wait for that tune
From the phone in my room
Every night after night
Cuz your voice made me smile

I remember
When you wouldn’t call
For some reason or all
That strange empty space
And the day, less worthwhile

I remember
We hugged and we kissed
And you said I’d be missed
When time came for goodbye
I thought it must be enough

But I remember it was then
I began to believe
Something’s changed within me
Though I’ve tried to deny
This space that I feel here is love

I Thought of You...

19-02-09

Today at last the sun shone through

The storm clouds of the night

It warmed and dried the rain-soaked ground

And filled our world with light

Which made me think of you

The clock ticked on and morning passed

The kids at school and play

With cheery smiles and twinkling eyes

Begged me to sit and stay

Which made me think of you

At noon, by loving, gentle hands

A sumptuous feast prepared

Fulfilled the hunger deep within

And fun and friendship shared

Which made me think of you

A quiet read upon my bed

I dozed off while I sat

And dreamed a dream that startled me

But pleasantly at that

Which made me think of you

All afternoon we tried and tried

To get to where we may

Have what we thought was what we’d want

Instead God had His way

Which made me think of you

And now it’s evening once again

And tiredly I lie

The moonlight flickers on my cheek

A butterfly floats by

Which makes me think of you

For You, on Valentines...

This is crazy, I know. But, I haven't really been able to stop thinking about you. I'm sure this has happened before, I've just never really dwelt on it. It's never ever been easy for me to come out and say anything that I honestly feel. You know how I am. I don't really really ever feel enough for anyone to actually mention something. Oh well... if this too passes, you'll be the first to say "I told you so..."

I wish you were here
You have no idea
I wish you could see
You have no idea
I wish you could know
How much you mean to me
How much you've changed me
How you've derailed me
How you've shaken what was me
And made of it something bizarre

I wish I could touch
You have no idea
I wish I could taste
You have no idea
I wish you could know
How much you mean to me
How much you've made me rethink
How you've challenged my beliefs
How you've shaken what was me
And made me stand yet taller

I wish you could hear
You have no idea
I wish you were near
You have no idea
I wish you could know
How much you mean to me
How much I crave you
How you've saved me
How you've shaken what was me
And made me who I am now

I know you don't believe in Valentine's Day, but I just wanted to say that I love you and I miss you, more than anything...

Making me Love

01-28-09













It’s been a long long time for me, it’s true
Longer than I would have wished to be
I’ve been through the valleys and ditches and through
The long nights, without liberty

I can’t say regret has softened my heart
Experience has hardened it still
And I don’t see how I’ll let go in part
Cause too long I’ve tasted this pill

But you know I’ll try, even if just for you
Though I won’t lie, it’s killing me to love you
My mind keeps replaying those words you’ve been saying
Those years that have crushed me to be what I am now
Somehow
You’re making me love

You gotta be patient with me, and slow
I may even never surrender it all
Please understand how I am and know
The temptation of you, I’ve seen it all

But you know I’ll try, even if just for you
Though I won’t lie, it’s killing me to love you
My mind keeps replaying those words you’ve been saying
Those years that have crushed me to be what I am now
Somehow
You’re making me love

So here I will go, yet again it seems
To open my heart and conquer my fear
I’ll try and let go of my rules and dreams
And live for today, the last day I’m here

But you know I’ll try, even if just for you
Though I won’t lie, it’s killing me to love you
My mind keeps replaying those words you’ve been saying
Those years that have crushed me to be what I am now
Somehow
You’re making me love

My Cross

Complainingly I told myself,

"This cross is too heavy to wear"
And I wondered discontentedly
Why God gave it to me to bear.

And I looked with envy at others
Whose crosses seemed lighter than mine
And wished that I could change my cross
For one of a lighter design.

And then, in a dream, I beheld the cross
I impulsively wanted to wear,
It was fashioned of pearls & diamonds
And gems that were precious & rare.

And when I hung it around my neck
The weight of the jewels & the gold
Was much too heavy & cumbersome
For my small, slender neck to hold--

So I tossed it aside & before my eyes
Was a cross of rose-red flowers
And I said with delight as I put it on,
"This cross I can wear for hours"

For it was so dainty & fragile,
So lovely & light & thin,
But I had forgotten about the thorns
That started to pierce my skin

And then in my dream I saw "my cross,"
Rugged & old & plain,
That clumsy old cross I had looked upon
With discontented disdain--

And at last I knew that God had made
This "special cross for me"
For God in His great wisdom knew
What I before could not see,

That often the loveliest crosses
Are the heaviest crosses to bear,
For only God is wise enough
To choose the cross we can wear

So never complain about your cross
For your cross has been blest
God made it just for you to wear
And remember, God knows best!

(MOP, Trials and Triumphs, 506)

Just wanna be with you

17/07/08

Vs 1

You don’t see it’s not about me

It’s not about what you’re saying

I couldn’t care less of the way you were dressed

Or of the game that you’re playing

Vs 2

It doesn’t really matter what walks under the ladder

It’s not about who’s right or wrong

The way that you smile and make life worthwhile

Is the reason I’m singing this song

Chorus

I just wanna be with you

I don’t care where we go

Or what we do

I just wanna be with you

Be by your side

For all my life

I just wanna be with you

Vs 3

I know that you think you gotta be great

And some kind of cool superstar

But all that I want is all that I see

Just you and the wonder you are

Vs 4

So please just stop trying to figure me out

And think you can read what I feel

Stop trying to flaunt, it’s you that I want

It’s you that I want, you’re for real.