Fate, not a friend

22-05-09













Is it what I thought?
Have I dreamt what is real?
Must I learn to recant
Who I love, how I feel?

I did try to warn you
It's always the same
Don't try to change me
I'm trapped in the game

Fate, not a friend
What I'm starting to see
And never, not once
Does she leave me to be

I knew this would happen
Despite what I say
I hate to be right
At the end of the day

What is a woman?

This is written in the Hebrew Talmud, the book where all of the sayings and preachings of Rabbis are conserved over time.

It says:
"Be very careful if you make a woman cry, because God counts her tears.
The woman came out of a man's rib.
Not from his feet to be walked on
Not from his head to be superior,
But from the side to be equal.
Under the arm to be protected,
And next to the heart to be loved."

Don't you know it too! ;)

Think again

Written November 11, 2006

Vs 1:
She sits upon the sidewalk waiting
He’s missed their 53rd appointment, Maybe
If she’d walk away, he might come running
Make it worth her while
Make her smile

Bridge:
But I’ve been here before
Had to pick those same blue pieces off the floor

Chorus:
You think he cares, it’s just not fair
You never see him anywhere
He calls to say, had a busy day
And you think that he’s real

You think he’s shy, when his friends pass by
He drops your hand, stares at the sky
He tells you not to wait up late
Then takes your best friend on a date
And you think that he’s real
Say, I know just how you feel

Vs 2:
She throws a shocker party for his birthday
Who knows, that he’d be late
Please stay baby
If she’d walk away, he might come running
Make it worth her while
Make her smile

Repeat Bridge and Chorus

Reminiscing...

24-02-09

I remember
You smiled and you laughed
And you sat and you stared
The first time we met
But I didn’t look twice

I remember
Not thinking of romance
When you moved and you danced
That night by the fire
But I did think, “How nice…”

I remember
When we drank and we talked
And you wooed and I mocked
The time at the bar
And you said you were true

I remember
Then I knew you were nuts
And I knew that I must
After all that I’d heard
Be crazy for liking you too

I remember
I would wait for that tune
From the phone in my room
Every night after night
Cuz your voice made me smile

I remember
When you wouldn’t call
For some reason or all
That strange empty space
And the day, less worthwhile

I remember
We hugged and we kissed
And you said I’d be missed
When time came for goodbye
I thought it must be enough

But I remember it was then
I began to believe
Something’s changed within me
Though I’ve tried to deny
This space that I feel here is love

I Thought of You...

19-02-09

Today at last the sun shone through

The storm clouds of the night

It warmed and dried the rain-soaked ground

And filled our world with light

Which made me think of you

The clock ticked on and morning passed

The kids at school and play

With cheery smiles and twinkling eyes

Begged me to sit and stay

Which made me think of you

At noon, by loving, gentle hands

A sumptuous feast prepared

Fulfilled the hunger deep within

And fun and friendship shared

Which made me think of you

A quiet read upon my bed

I dozed off while I sat

And dreamed a dream that startled me

But pleasantly at that

Which made me think of you

All afternoon we tried and tried

To get to where we may

Have what we thought was what we’d want

Instead God had His way

Which made me think of you

And now it’s evening once again

And tiredly I lie

The moonlight flickers on my cheek

A butterfly floats by

Which makes me think of you

For You, on Valentines...

This is crazy, I know. But, I haven't really been able to stop thinking about you. I'm sure this has happened before, I've just never really dwelt on it. It's never ever been easy for me to come out and say anything that I honestly feel. You know how I am. I don't really really ever feel enough for anyone to actually mention something. Oh well... if this too passes, you'll be the first to say "I told you so..."

I wish you were here
You have no idea
I wish you could see
You have no idea
I wish you could know
How much you mean to me
How much you've changed me
How you've derailed me
How you've shaken what was me
And made of it something bizarre

I wish I could touch
You have no idea
I wish I could taste
You have no idea
I wish you could know
How much you mean to me
How much you've made me rethink
How you've challenged my beliefs
How you've shaken what was me
And made me stand yet taller

I wish you could hear
You have no idea
I wish you were near
You have no idea
I wish you could know
How much you mean to me
How much I crave you
How you've saved me
How you've shaken what was me
And made me who I am now

I know you don't believe in Valentine's Day, but I just wanted to say that I love you and I miss you, more than anything...

Making me Love

01-28-09













It’s been a long long time for me, it’s true
Longer than I would have wished to be
I’ve been through the valleys and ditches and through
The long nights, without liberty

I can’t say regret has softened my heart
Experience has hardened it still
And I don’t see how I’ll let go in part
Cause too long I’ve tasted this pill

But you know I’ll try, even if just for you
Though I won’t lie, it’s killing me to love you
My mind keeps replaying those words you’ve been saying
Those years that have crushed me to be what I am now
Somehow
You’re making me love

You gotta be patient with me, and slow
I may even never surrender it all
Please understand how I am and know
The temptation of you, I’ve seen it all

But you know I’ll try, even if just for you
Though I won’t lie, it’s killing me to love you
My mind keeps replaying those words you’ve been saying
Those years that have crushed me to be what I am now
Somehow
You’re making me love

So here I will go, yet again it seems
To open my heart and conquer my fear
I’ll try and let go of my rules and dreams
And live for today, the last day I’m here

But you know I’ll try, even if just for you
Though I won’t lie, it’s killing me to love you
My mind keeps replaying those words you’ve been saying
Those years that have crushed me to be what I am now
Somehow
You’re making me love