Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Just Cling

07/04/08

If every day I took as my last
and all those rainy days of my past
a step a little closer to my due
a blessing colored by another hue

If every time I hurt and let go
and hid behind a smile, a show
a way to just forgive and say I'm sorry
a rainbow after storms of old sad stories

And I
I'm done with knowing everything
and all I want to do is cling
to You
You say that all I have to do
is leave it all and
Just love You.
You.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

The Piano Teacher

Here is my favorite Guideposts story on a mother's love.

I remember we read it together one quiet evening in the Home, and even though I had heard it before that reading, this time stuck in my memory most. One of my friends had lost her mother to cancer when she was a young teenager. The, no doubt, numerous physical and emotional struggles she had to face and go through in the consequent years, while still maintaining a calm composure and being the eldest sibling to her 7 younger brothers and sisters, could have hardened her and made her cold. But her mother had obviously loved deeply and had passed on that love to her children before making her journey Home. The kind of mother's love that motivates and strengthens, that reaches out and believes, that heals. My friend's perseverance and determination to go on and keep touching others' lives in love, the way her mother touched hers, has changed me in a way I'll never forget. That night, on Mother's Day, she read this story to us:

The Piano Teacher

By Mildred Hondorf

I've always supplemented my income by teaching piano lessons-something I've done for over 30 years. Over the years I found that children have many levels of musical ability. I've never had the pleasure of having a protégé, though I have taught some talented students. However, I've also had my share of what I call "musically challenged" pupils. One such student was Robby. Robby was 11 years old when his mother, a single mom, dropped him off for his first piano lesson. I prefer that students begin at an earlier age, which I explained to Robby.

But Robby said that it had always been his mother's dream to hear him play the piano. So I took him as a student. Well, Robby began with his piano lessons and from the beginning I thought it was a hopeless endeavor. As much as Robby tried, he lacked the sense of tone and basic rhythm needed to excel. But he dutifully reviewed his scales and some elementary pieces that I require all my students to learn.

Over the months he tried and tried, while I listened and cringed and tried to encourage him. At the end of each weekly lesson he'd always say, "My mom's going to hear me play someday."

But it seemed hopeless. He just did not have any inborn ability. I only knew his mother from a distance as she dropped Robby off or waited in her aged car to pick him up. She always waved and smiled but never stopped in.

Then one day Robby stopped coming to our lessons. I thought about calling him but assumed, because of his lack of ability, that he had decided to pursue something else. I also was glad that he stopped coming. He was a bad advertisement for my teaching!

Several weeks later I mailed to the students' homes a flyer on the upcoming recital. To my surprise Robby (who received a flyer) asked me if he could be in the recital. I told him that the recital was for current pupils and because he had dropped out he really did not qualify.

He said that his mom had been sick and unable to take him to piano lessons, but he was still practicing. "Miss Hondorf, I've just got to play!" he insisted. I don't know what led me to allow him to play in the recital. Maybe it was his persistence, or maybe it was something inside of me saying that it would be all right.

The night for the recital came. The high school gymnasium was packed with parents, friends, and relatives. I put Robby up last in the program, before I was to come up and thank all the students and play a finishing piece. I thought that any damage he would do would come at the end of the program and I could always salvage his poor performance through my "curtain closer."

Well, the recital went off without a hitch. The students had been practicing and it showed. Then Robby came up on stage. His clothes were wrinkled and his hair looked like he had run an eggbeater through it. Why didn't he dress up like the other students? I thought. Why didn't his mother at least make him comb his hair for this special night?

Robby pulled out the piano bench and he began. I was surprised when he announced that he had chosen Mozart's Concerto #21 in C Major. I was not prepared for what I heard next. His fingers were light on the keys; they even danced nimbly on the ivories. He went from pianissimo to fortissimo, from allegro to virtuoso. His suspended chords that Mozart demands were magnificent! Never had I heard Mozart played so well by a person his age.

After six and a half minutes he ended in a grand crescendo and everyone was on their feet in wild applause. Overcome and in tears I ran up on stage and put my arms around Robby in joy. "I've never heard you play like that, Robby! How'd you do it?"

Through the microphone Robby explained: "Well, Miss Hondorf, remember I told you my mom was sick? Well, actually she had cancer and passed away this morning. And, well,” he paused. “… She was born deaf, so tonight was the first time she ever heard me play. I wanted to make it special."

There wasn't a dry eye in the house that evening. As the people from Social Services led Robby from the stage to be placed into foster care, I noticed that even their eyes were red and puffy. I thought to myself how much richer my life had been for taking Robby as my pupil.

No, I've never had a prodigy, but that night I became a protégé of Robby's. He was the teacher and I was the pupil. For it is he who taught me the meaning of perseverance and love and believing in yourself and maybe even taking a chance on someone when you don't know why.

We all have countless opportunities each day to help realize God's plan. So many seemingly trivial interactions between two people present us with a choice: Do we pass up that opportunity, and leave the world a bit colder in the process? Or do we pass along a spark of the divine?


The Crown

Jesus has a beautiful crown for each of us, and it's not just a crown we decide to take or leave when we're facing our earthly deaths or if we're called to martyrdom.
It's a crown we decide we want every single day of our lives.
It's a crown we've got to be willing to fight for, even if by faith alone.
It's a crown we choose to sacrifice for, because we're convinced in our hearts that it's worth it and we know Jesus is counting on us.
Holding on to our crowns is not a decision we make just once in our lives. Each and every day we've got to say‚ "Yes, I want my crown. I'm not going to deny my faith, but I'm going to give my all, whatever it takes!"