Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Calling You

Blue October 

(I love you, Babes...more than you know. Thanks for always calling me...) 





There's something that I can't quite explain
I'm so in love with you
You'll never take that away

And if I said a hundred times before
Expect a thousand more
You'll never take that away

Well, expect me to be
Calling you to see
If you're okay when I'm not around
Asking if you love me
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile
To make a smile?

Well I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming? And
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe
You actually picked...me

I thought that the world had lost its way
(It's so hard sometimes)
Then I fell in love with you
(Then came you)
And you took that away
(It's not so difficult, the world is not so difficult)
You take away the old
Show me the new
And I feel like I can fly
When I stand next to you
So what if I'm on this phone
A hundred miles from home
I take the words you gave
And send them back to you

I only want to see
If you're okay when I'm not around
Asking if you love me
I love the way you make it sound
Calling you to see
Do I try too hard to make you smile
To make a smile?

I will keep calling you to see
If you're sleeping, are you dreaming? And
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe
You actually picked...me

Monday, December 28, 2009

A Christmas Wish

December 25, 2009


If I could only have one wish
For this merry Christmas night
I couldn't pick a single one
That alone would justify

I'd wish for peace to come to all
And pain to melt away
But I'd also wish for love and truth
On this Christmas day

I'd wish for lively fun and joy
Ten thousand bells to ring
I'd wish for laughter to be heard
And the herald angels sing

But I'd also wish for quieter times
To reflect upon this day
For time to think on why we're here
For men to learn to pray

I'd wish that all could find the hope
That trusting in Him brings
Instead of worry, hate and fear
Instead of trusting things

And I'd wish that those we love could know
How much it means to me
To be together on this day
To be a family

And in a few more years to come
I'd wish that we could smile
When thinking back upon this day
And linger there awhile

If I could only have one wish
For this merry Christmas night
I couldn't pick a single one
That alone would justify...


Have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

The Boy Who Changed My Christmases Forever


This story really touched me, so I'd like to share it with you:



By John London
      I hurried into the local department store to grab some last-minute Christmas gifts. I looked at all the people and grumbled to myself. I would be in here forever and I just had so much to do. Christmas was beginning to become such a drag. I kinda wished that I could just sleep through Christmas. But I hurried the best I could through all the people to the toy department. Once again I mumbled to myself at the prices of all these toys and wondered if the grandkids would even play with them.
      I found myself in the doll aisle. Out of the corner of my eye I saw a little boy about five holding a lovely doll. He kept touching her hair and he held her so gently. I could not seem to help myself. I just kept looking over at the little boy and wondered who the doll was for. I watched him turn to a woman he called his aunt and say, “Are you sure I don’t have enough money?” She replied a bit impatiently, “You know that you don’t have enough money for it.” The aunt told the little boy not to go anywhere; that she had to go get some other things and would be back in a few minutes. And then she left the aisle. The boy continued to hold the doll.
      After a bit I asked the boy who the doll was for. He said, “It is the doll my sister wanted so badly for Christmas. She just knew that Santa would bring it.” I told him that maybe Santa was going to bring it. He said “No, Santa can’t go where my sister is … I have to give the doll to my momma to take to her.” I asked him where his sister was.
      He looked at me with the saddest eyes and said, “She has gone to be with Jesus. My daddy says that Momma is going to have to go be with her.” My heart nearly stopped beating. Then the boy looked at me again and said, “I told Daddy to tell Momma not to go yet. I told him to tell her to wait till I got back from the store.” Then he asked me if I wanted to see his picture. I told him I would love to. He pulled out some pictures he’d had taken at the front of the store. He said, “I want my momma to take this with her so she won’t ever forget me. I love my momma so very much and I wish she didn’t have to leave me, but Daddy says she will need to be with my sister.”
      I saw that the little boy had lowered his head and had grown so very quiet. While he was not looking, I reached into my purse and pulled out a handful of bills. I asked the little boy, “Shall we count that money one more time?” He grew excited and said, “Yes, I just know it has to be enough.” So I slipped my money in with his and we began to count it.
      Of course, it was plenty for the doll. He softly said, “Thank You Jesus for giving me enough money.” Then the boy said, “I just asked Jesus to give me enough money to buy this doll so Momma can take it with her to give to my sister, and He heard my prayer. I wanted to ask Him for enough to buy my momma a white rose, but I didn’t ask Him; but He’s given me enough to buy the doll and a rose for Momma! She loves white roses so very, very much.”
      In a few minutes the aunt came back and I wheeled my cart away. I could not keep from thinking about the little boy as I finished my shopping in a totally different spirit than when I had started. I kept remembering a story I had seen in the newspaper several days earlier about a drunk driver hitting a car and killing a little girl and the mother was in serious condition. The family was deciding on whether to remove the life support. Surely this little boy did not belong with that story.
      Two days later I read in the paper that the family had disconnected the life support and the young woman had died. I couldn’t forget the little boy and just kept wondering if the two were somehow connected. Later that day, I couldn’t help myself, I went out and bought some white roses and took them to the funeral home where the young woman was. There she was, holding a lovely white rose, the beautiful doll, and the picture of the little boy in the store.
      I left there in tears, my life changed forever. The love that little boy had for his little sister and his mother was overwhelming. “We make a living by what we get; we make a life by what we give.”

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Blurry

Puddle of Mudd

(One of my favorite songs...)



And everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty
And everything is so messed up
Preoccupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I'll protect you
From all of the obscene
I wonder what your doing?
Imagine where you are?
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far

Chorus:
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well you shoved it my face

Everyone is changing
There's no one left that's real
To make up your own ending
And let me know just how you feel
'Cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

And you could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I will save you
From all of the unclean
I wonder what your doing?
I wonder where you are?
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far

Repeat Chorus:
This pain you gave to me

Nobody told me what you thought
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Told you when to runaway
Nobody told you where to hide
Nobody told you what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Showed you when to runaway

Repeat Chorus:
This pain you gave to me
No this pain you gave to me
This pain you gave to me

You take it all
You take it all away
Explain again to me
You take it all away
Explain again to me
Take it all away
Explain again
Explain again
Explain again

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

You

01-12-09
I sat down today to write something of you
It had to be done, I said to myself
If someone like you could fill up my thoughts
And push all else out, without any help

Then certainly much could be said of this someone
Whose voice makes my heart jump, and blushes my face
Whose smile stops my breathing, and freezes my throat
Whose eyes tell a story I cannot erase





You make me feel as if no one else matters
It's hard to believe why you'd even care
About someone like me, a nothing, a splatter
I think that you love me, do I even dare?

To dream that one day I’ll call you my own
My own special someone, the half of my heart
And every day wake up beside you alone
To stay here for always, and never depart

And if this is all just a very good dream
And if it’s a lie, I don’t know what I’d do
Maybe every girl says this, and so it’s cliché
You’re one in a billion, there’s no one like you

I sat down today to write something of you
It had to be done, I said to myself
Although I am selfish, you know that it's true
I think that the whole world should know about you